This Saturday, EPIX will premiere Madonna: The MDNA Tour, a concert special which documents the Queen of Pop's record-setting 2012 world tour. And at the special's premiere Tuesday night, Madonna told the audience that doing the grueling show every night left her in such a "mess" that she was "crying" half the time.
When Madonna was asked how she got psyched to perform every night, even when she wasn't in the mood, she told the audience , " There’s no such thing as 'not in the mood,' because the show must go on. I mean, I’m a human being like everyone else, so I would have my bad nights, and I would cry and say, ‘I don’t want to do this.’ But you know, I sold the tickets and I can’t let my audience down."
that before every show, she, the dancers and musicians would gather in her dressing room, hold hands in a circle and say prayers. "Fifty percent of the time I said them, and 49 percent of the time I was crying -- usually from over-exhaustion," she revealed. "
I was a mess. Just talk to my manager.
In addition to being exhausted, Madonna also said it was difficult for her to perform when so many things were going on in the world.
" There’s something about pushing yourself when it’s pouring rain or it’s freezing cold or you don’t feel well or something really...crazy happened in the world, like Hurricane Sandy," she told the audience. "There were so many weird, bizarre things happening [during the tour]...gays being arrested at my concert in St. Petersburg...the election of Obama . The world was changing rapidly...it was just a crazy time."
As a result, she says, "Sometimes I just didn’t feel like I had the strength to go on and sing and dance and pretend like crazy sh*t wasn’t happening in the world." So what kept her going?
"The world needs to be inspired -- it’s my job, it’s all of our jobs to bring people up," she explained.
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